Well, that title must have told you how unsuccessful I've been at losing it. One time though, I did manage to lose about 50 pounds but gained it all back in a year and then some. After that it was pretty much lose a few, gain a lot...and finally I just gave up. Which is where I was at, up until four days ago when I received another wake up call..
Of late my left knee had been giving me a lot of trouble. I was having difficulty climbing stairs, getting up from low seaters etc. I was unable to climb stairs without holding onto railings as that would give me some support. Otherwise my knee would hurt a lot and I would end up climbing the stairs like little children..one stair at a time with the good leg going first on each staircase.
But even that wasnt enough to nudge me to take the plunge again!
Last Thursday my knee had been hurting pretty bad so I lay down on the down on bed and suddenly I had a very sharp shooting pain in my thigh which seemed to be going till my knee. I was unable to move, turn or get up from the bed! I was almost screaming with every attempt at movement of any sort.
And as I lay there, in that moment, I honestly thought that I had brought some sort of permanent debilitating injury onto myself due to my carelessness. And I begged God for forgiveness and one for more chance...to set things right.
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